Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Dan Rabin: you are missed more and more

Ester

I have so many fond memories of you, Ester. We knew each other for two years. Firstly when Martin and I began to work at The Tricycle Theatre. We had no idea what we were going to do with the group. In a way that is how the Muju group has developed. We all meet every week, looking to each other for inspiration. That is part of the fun, the 'so what do we do now' element is always there. Firstly this was a bit scary for me and Martin. We'd never worked like this, with a group of mostly adults just wanting to get together and do some acting, and see where it went. Because of this we are reliant on each other for ideas. You came up with so many, everyone did, we tried to push everything to the limit and be as brave as we could with the material we were generating.

But who knows what is good taste and what is bad? Who knows what you can say and can’t? Who has the wisdom to say 'just try it any way and don’t be scared to fail'? Who makes the environment safe where everyone feels that they can create anything and not be embarrassed? Who makes sure no one is left out, and that ultimately we keep our feet on the ground and have a sense of humour? Who can spread love around the room and light it up with her smile? You did all these things, Ester, and so much more, and really as time goes on you are missed more and more. What an honour it was to know you and work in an intimate way with you.

The piece that we made as a group has so much of you in it, and your influence on it is clear to see. I'm finding more and more out about you now and it seems whatever you turned your hand to you excelled. This is true of the work we did together. You were a very good actor, great improviser and incredibly generous with ideas and truly supportive of everyone around you.

I am glad you walked into the Tricycle that September evening.

You are missed. x